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Sunday, December 30, 2007

things i’ve noticed about california


anything that is new always seems foreign and unfamiliar...that's what's so cool about moving to another place, you walk out the door and you don't know where you are! ha but the more you do & the more places you go...and it all starts to come together. it's all about discovery & where you are going that makes these unfamiliar baby steps seem so dreamy & unreal. being in california (this is my 3rd time out here) seems oddly different than the other times i was here. like you're looking at it from different angles... but after about 3 wks of fully getting into the whole california vibe i'll have to say that a couple things are pretty noticeable. the 1st thing that i "noticed" is the driving out's funny but the drivers out here aren't really in a hurry like they are on the east coast...jesus! driving thru atlanta is like being raped! you miss an exit and you have to drive 50 miles before you can correct yourself & you're making split sec decisions at 80 mph!'s like when you watch ants...ants walking in a nice orderly line! some carrying little sand granules...but keeping the pace in a very timely fashion....i swear to god, i get in the left lane on any highway out here and i'm at a steady 70/80 and not even blinking...everybody else stays in the middle or right lanes and drive an orderly 55 to 65 maybe. simple enough huh? except that you must 1st get onto the freeway & i swear to god...nobody is going to let your fucking ass in! i don't care if you beg! i close my eyes & i can see the stern faces! old asian ladies is what i see! holding onto their 9/5 space occupied by their automobile! but being an overly aggressive driver that i's usually not even mentioning as a problem. i think that californians are doing more important shit than stressing over getting from point a to point b in x amount of time...they just don't give a shit (which is funny) and i think that it's because 1/2 the people out here are on something...mood altering drugs maybe...anti depressants maybe? i don't know...i see friendly faces & wide open spaces! hhahahaha maybe it's just me or maybe wishful thinking...that next to arnold i'm the other fastest thinking guy out here! can it be?'s something else i noticed...and i don't want you to think that i'm being stereotypically racial or anything...but one thing that i REALLY noticed is asian or indian or mexican people out here DON'T have an accent! look man, being 1/2 japanese myself, i'm used to seeing my mom struggling w/ the english language my whole life...out here especially older asian people speak like....(and don't take this the wrong way) but they speak like your typical white guy! it's funny! we were in this sushi place & this older japanese guy was preparing some noodles for us & i asked a question...and expected this broken english response...he speaks up & almost sounds like he's from brooklyn! jesus! me & jazz cracked up! ok & another thing....there's no fat people out here! back in ga, it was like every 3rd person you saw was morbidly obese (300 pounders) everywhere! riding around in their motorized chairs... out here, people are fit! and gorgeous! not pamela anderson bleached blonde types...more like fit individuals who realize that they have one life & being a non functioning blob isn't an option ... people aren't quick to enable that kind of behavior out here. living in the japantown area of san jose is really cool's really diverse here w/ many different ethnicities & cultures...and the food is fabulous! the ethiopian gives me the willies but every thing else is quite yummy...i DO miss the new peking buffet on wash rd though...nothing like americanized greasy msg ridden chinese food! not the real deal chinese food that you get out here!!!

ahahaha just a few observations from a new california resident!

i love it out here ! & i'm going to end this quickly because my comp is about to lock up again!won't be posting any new videos on myspace...apparently the music i used behind a new video i just made violated the myspace copyright infringement rules & they've banned me from uploading any of my vids...oh well, jazz'll do it i guess...that's what i get for lifting a song off the last temptation of christ soundtrack! oh well.

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Saturday, December 29, 2007

so they left her on the tarmac!


what was THAT situation like?

A couple of days ago I saw the story of the poor lady (whose arms did not seem to be broken mind you) that was left on the tarmac by the airport employees as everyone else boarded above and the rest of the luggage was loaded.

So, the plane takes off and there she is sitting on the tarmac....
Personally, I think that I would rather enjoy the vantage point of seeing a plane take off from there. I mean who gets to see that in their life time?

Anyways, the daughter was pissed and Headline News decided that it was news worthy. Talk about a fluff piece. So what was the result? They put the lady (whose arms still don't seem to be broken) onto a later flight.

I am sure that this time they were sure to push this rather vibrant looking woman (whose arms really seem to be in working order) up to the plane to make sure she boarded this time fo sho!

Ha Ha Holidays

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Determinism? What’s the point of getting out of bed then?!!!


From a paper that I wrote on Sartre in Fall of '07

Two points here:

1) “It was (or wasn’t) meant to be.”
I cannot believe that things are planned in advance.

That is just too easy and a much too lazy way to live your life.
Life IS randomness. Oh perhaps YOU may be pre-determined to some extent- but not your life.

2) Perception is reality.
I do believe that this phrase truly applies to everything that happens in this life. Where you stand determines what you see.
Happy? Sad? Hopeless? Inspired?

If you want to change what you see then change where you stand.
Likewise, if you want to alter your stance, then change how you look at things.

Gang, we cannot keep randomness from occurring.
But, we can indeed determine how to act upon that randomness in our lives.

I will never believe that God determined that I would get leukemia. And I do not believe that some old man in the clouds hovering over His chess board decided that I should live from that wretched disease. But, I do believe that this “source” or the “ground of all being” was there and worked with me to kick cancer’s dick in the dirt when I let It help me.

And I will take my universal source of all energy over your wizard in a throne room, thank you very much.

So, Sartre said,

“Life is nothing until it is lived; but it is yours to make sense of,
and the value of it is nothing else but the sense that you choose.”

My friends:
Your perception IS your reality.

In the end,
there is no one to judge us in the way that we judge ourselves.
And many times, it is in our judgment of ourselves that others will decide just how we are to be judged.

Friday, December 28, 2007

Michael Vick’s “house” here in Virginia



I am visiting the homestead over the holiday season and I am within an hour of where Michael grew up. I am about an hour from where the notorious house is that he bought for the cousins and friends and the dog torturing took place.

Apparently, the house sold as soon as the story broke by some wealthy man who was basically speculating that the house would sell for a ton when the story finally played out.

He bought it for like 250K or something the week that the story broke.

This past month he tried to sell it at auction and wanted no less than 750K.
The best offer was less than 500K so he didn't sell it.

All of this is quite depressing and sick in many ways.
And here is that creepiest part about this man trying to sell what he thought would be a "novelty" to potential buyers: he left ALL of the dog houses and cages and other constructions up and out for display. WTF?!?

This guy actually thought that the idea of dog fighting and the novelty of the Michael Vick case would be appealing to buyers. He is a sick twist....

So now he admits that maybe he needs to try to remove all of the remembrances and clean the place up of all torturing and then try to sell it again.

What a tool…

Wednesday, December 26, 2007




I don’t believe in it. Not to say that I don’t believe that living things evolve.
But, if there was such a thing it stopped the day we learned how to speak.

The main thing we use language for is to get someone to do, or get, something for us that we could do ourselves. We use it to hurt and belittle more than to help and support. And then this religion thing raises its ugly head. Killing people in the name of one’s GOD. What a weak GOD that must be not able to handle that part Himself.

And lying…. How quickly a baby learns to cry to get what they want although not in pain. Rewarded, the crying turns to words and lies, as the grow, embedded in their vocabulary as a means of getting others to do or get something they could get for themselves.

If we just could have kept our mouths shut a few more millennia. Spoke from the heart with our eyes, like the wolf, maybe we’d have something to say worth hearing.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Bowl Season

"...Well I want you to understand somethin'. To me, being perfect is not about that scoreboard out there. It's not about winning. It's about you and your relationship to yourself and your family and your friends.

Being perfect is about being able to look your friends in the eye and know that you didn't let them down, because you told them the truth. And that truth is that you did everything that you could. There wasn't one more thing that you could've done. Can you live in that moment, as best you can, with clear eyes and love in your heart?

With joy in your heart?

If you can do that gentlemen, then you're perfect.

I want you to take a moment. And I want you to look each other in the eyes. I want you to put each other in your hearts forever, because forever's about to happen here in just a few minutes.

Boys, my heart is full. My heart's full."

~Friday Night Lights

Friday, December 21, 2007

It is difficult to live in the present,
ridiculous to live in the future,
and impossible to live in the past.

Nothing is as far away as one minute ago.

~Jim Bishop

Monday, December 17, 2007

Wednesday Night


There was drama, oh yes!!
What should have been an easy evening was like sitting in a three leg chair. The tension was being poured out one & a half at a time and I don't know why.

Friends on edge, lovers ignoring each other, and strangers perched like vultures waiting to prey on either. This was one of those nights I'm glad I had that "invisible" quality.

A tiny, green frog jumped from a bar tap and landed on my shoulder. "What's up with these people tonight?" he said.

"Hell if I know...Full moon maybe?" I replied.

The frog laughed. "I don't come out on full moons...I know a cool little place up the road. Wanna go?"

"Sure, lets get outta of this amateur night."

I grabbed my smokes, finished my beer and headed towards the door. As I watched the frog hop out the entrance he stopped and saw me looking at him puzzled.

"What?" said the frog. I smiled,
"How little is this place?"

We laughed and went on our way...

Friday, December 7, 2007

the goofy loser fuck that shot up the mall


i can see it now...another bunch of stupid unpopular kids watching what a big deal the media is making over this piece of shit that shot up the mall in nebraska. you don't think they want a piece of that action? hell yeah! because what is going on in their lives? just like the useless fuck that did the shooting they are approaching adulthood and the responsibilities that they didn't have before are practically crashing down on them now! job/rent/bills/gas a date these days costs 50 dollars minimum! what to do? what to do? hey! let's shoot up a mall or train station or a mcdonalds. that way you get all the attention that other kid got & you can be a star too. this country is based on this shit...cowboys & indians - good guys & bad guys shooting it out in the rootin tootin wild west! it's all media hype! bullshit! just today every media outlet in the world are releasing new surveillance pics of this dumb ass walking thru the mall shooting at his human targets - here he is by the mannequin about to shoot up billy & suzy & brad! and we all gape at this shit and shake our heads saying inside...i'm just glad it wasn't me hehehe but i'll look @ all the pictures because i'm such a loser boring fuck that all i can do to derive pleasure is to slow down and look at the poor bleeding accident victim....ah, poor guy (glad it's not me) ok, time to speed up again! the media creates these little useless fucks! and WE eat it up. it's supply and's feeding the christians to the lions! YEAH! that's why the 5 o'clock news never has good news anymore, that's known as fluff...who wants fluff? i just noticed where one of these pedophile hot teachers was banned from capitalizing on anything that has to do w/ her case for her entire 8 yr probationary period. that means no movie of the book sexy interviews where all the sexual positions are discussed in some porn mag. and you know what? when it's over and she's done w/ her 8 yr probation, nobodies really going to care about her sexy crime anymore because the entire passionate situation has been diffused! it's rendered a non story! so this dickhead who shot up the mall...when he was watching the other fuck who was shooting up dairy queen or the greyhound bus terminal and getting all the star treatment...if THAT guy was simply referred to as the gunman w/ no pictures & no in depth expose about his stupid lonely past, maybe this nebraska mall shooter would have just turned off the tv & found some other way of being famous. but the media is always there to remind us, that there is can be a serial killer or highway sniper or a terrorist who blows up buildings full of people instead. who wants to be famous finding a cure for aids or cancer? that takes too much work.

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